A New Year, A Blank Slate

Does anyone else get as excited about a new year as I do?!  I know you don’t need a new year to start over, set new goals and make big changes.  You can do that any day of the year!  Mondays have always been my favorite for that reason too.  But there is something refreshing about a blank slate, a whole new year to dream big and make things happen.  And as I have for the last 5 years, I have big plans for this new year!  I have set some pretty scary goals but also have committed to changing myself for the better.

I’ll be honest with you, I started to get really down the last few weeks of December.  I had set some big goals last January and I didn’t reach them all.  It can be very disappointing, for sure.  So, I had two choices, I could let those define my future or I could learn and grow from those failures.  And thanks to a dear friend, I decided to NOT focus on the goals that I didn’t reach but instead, focus on what I did accomplish in 2018.  And the list was not that shabby.

Here are a few of my favorite accomplishments from 2018

80 Day Obsession

I started and completed an 80 day program that completely transformed me physically and mentally.  It also challenged me in a way that I had never been challenged.  I’m not gonna lie, it was HARD!  But I stuck to it, stayed committed to my nutrition and my workouts for 13 weeks and the results spoke for themselves.  I literally  cried on the last day because I was so proud of myself and felt so accomplished.  It was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life.

Photo Shoot

In January of 2018, I set the goal to complete 80 Day Obsession.  As a reward for completing the program, I promised myself a fitness photo shoot.  This was something I’ve never done before and completely out of my comfort zone.  But I knew at 41 years old, I was going to be in the best shape of my life.  I decided to celebrate that as well as document it!

As the end of the program approached I set the date and scheduled my photo shoot. I was seriously a nervous wreck!  That morning, I went and had my hair and makeup done and showed up for the shoot 20 minutes early, in true Tammy fashion.  My photographer was amazing and put me at ease.  I had such a great time and left there feeling so confident!  It was definitely a highlight of my year and the pictures turned out beautiful.  There is truly no feeling like overcoming your fears and stepping outside your comfort zone.

Earned Vacation

The week following the end of 80 Day obsession and my photo shoot, Chris and I left for Mexico!  How amazing was it going to the beach at 41 years old and in the best shape of my life!!  I had never in my life been more confident strutting around in my bikini!  The best part of this vacation (besides spending it with the love of my life) was that it was a trip I earned by helping other people get started on their on fitness journey.  How cool is that!?  Another highlight of that trip- running into Autumn Calabrese (the creator of 80 DO) and her telling me she liked my outfit and that I looked great!  I died!

Mexico
Modeling

Yep, you read that right!  All 5’3 of me signed on with an agency as a model.  I have to laugh at that a little.  The truth is, ever since I was in middle school, I dreamed of being a model.  I pursued it a few times with little outcome.  To be honest, I don’t think it was very good for my self esteem.  I wasn’t in a place to be able to handle rejection at that age in my life.

Here’s how it happened.  After I received the pictures back from my photo shoot, on a crazy whim, I sent them to a local modeling agency.  I really didn’t expect much but I thought what the hell do I have to lose.  Well, they ended up signing me on and I was even able to book a few gigs over the summer.  I have no plans to become rich or famous from modeling but it sure has been a fun experience so far.  The biggest thing that it has done for me, is boost my confidence.  Not for the reasons you may think.  I’m not getting jobs because I’m the prettiest, in the best shape, etc.  They’re not runway or catalogue jobs!  Remember I’m 5’3 and 41 years old!  It’s the fears that  I’m overcoming fears that has me feeling so proud.   Every time you do something outside your comfort zone, you boost your confidence a little more!

Modeling
Insanity & PiYo Certified

This was a big one too!  For the last 4 years I’ve talked about getting certified to teach Insanity and PiYo classes.  For 4 years, I’ve made excuses for why I couldn’t.  But not this year!  This was my year to face my fears and do all the things!  I had an absolute blast getting certified to teach Insanity with my brother at our annual Beachbody coach event over the summer.  I even got to meet my “girl crush” and one of my fav coaches, Danielle Natoni!  Not gonna lie, I was a little star struck especially when she commented on my abs!  Whaaatttt!!

And then in the fall, I was able to get my PiYo certification from the comfort of my basement.  Turns out that class is a lot harder to teach than I imagined but I look forward to working on it in the new year.

The gang at our annual BB event
Danielle and our master trainer for Insanity certification
Facing more fears

One of the gigs that I booked happened to be at an amusement park.  When I agreed to do this photo shoot, I had no idea  that I would have to actually ride the rides.  See, I have a major fear of heights and I get motion sickness.  While I love taking my kids to this particular amusement park, I never actually ride the roller coasters.  I stick with Stella in the kiddie area and watch the excitement on the boys faces when they come off of the rides.

Not this time.  I had to do it!  I was getting paid to do it!  So, I took my Dramamine, prayed really hard, took several deep breaths and even cussed a little.  But I did it!  I rode the scariest and highest rides at this park.  And I had a blast!  I did get a little sick on day one and may or may not have had to go lie down in the first aid tent.  I rallied though and finished with a bang!

Me! On a roller coaster!!
Growing my business

While my coaching business didn’t end where I had hoped it would.  I had to appreciate the fact that it is still growing and thriving.  Also, the fact that I love what I do and am able to fit it in on my time makes me appreciate it even more.  The last 6-8 months of the year had been really crazy for me with Stella being home all summer, the change in Stella’s school schedule and her added therapies.  The truth is that I didn’t make the time to work my business like I would have.  And I could feel bad about that or accept that this is the season of life that I’m in.  It won’t last forever.  I also have to be super proud of the fact that I may have put less hours into coaching than I would have liked but my income still grew this year.  That is the beauty of this business!  There are few jobs out there that would accommodate my current schedule and still have room for me to grow.  I’m feeling very blessed.

It was a good year!

My word of 2018 that I chose last January was AUTHENTIC.  That word was important to me because I wanted show people the real me, all of me.  No more of just the highlight reel but the good, the bad and the not so pretty.  It was a very freeing year, following this one word.

Though it looks like my theme for last year should’ve been overcoming fears.  I was a bad ass at that all year long!  My plan for 2019- to continue stepping outside my comfort zone and being authentically and unapologetically me.  But my new word this year will be- BECOMING.  This year I will work on becoming my best version, becoming who God intended me to be and becoming the kind of person that gives value to others.  With that I will be focusing on letting go- legging go of other people’s opinions of me, self doubt, things that I can not control, my own limiting beliefs, my excuses and things that do not make me better.

2019 I’m coming for ya!

Happy New Year!

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